I have a friend who sings, who writes and sings, his stage name is L@yo. The first time I saw him was in a concert on Instagram during the first summer of the pandemic. I love his voice. His delightful voice. […]
8. Three days two nights
Including the operation, I was in hospital for three days and two nights. The first night was the hardest of them all, partly because of the pain in the wounds and partly because I couldn’t rest due to the […]
7. Thirst for knowledge
I have spent a long time trying to quench a thirst that makes me feel deserted. It is a thirst for knowledge. Knowledge of getting to know myself and understand how my body works. I have spent a long time in search of answers and balance. And it’s not until […]
6. Opening and closing my eyes
I left the cubicle with the nurse, and we passed through various corridors before arriving at the operating theatre. Grey and white in colour, they reminded me of the cold feeling of a polished concrete wall. For a moment I seemed to be living […]
5. Pre-operation
I had taken the day before the operation off work, and left everything that I needed prepared. I had dedicated time for myself, to tidy myself up and therefore feel more comfortable after the operation. […]
4. Rejection
At some point it all started with rejection, the disconnection from myself, as a woman. Nelly explained to me once that when we reject a part of ourselves it is out of fear that if we identify with it, others […]
3. Packing
Every journey needs a bag. Sometimes it can be invisible and even so have an immeasurable weight. My journey to reconnection also has luggage. It has more than one bag. Or one alone in which things will come and go, and […]
2. Scared to bleed
Today I feel tired. Work has been intense, trying to finalise pending things and leave my replacement ready, so that everything goes well while I am on leave. The operation (Opening and […]
1. A journey to reconnect
I feel the need to share this journey of self-discovery that I have started due to facing an upcoming operation to remove some fibroids in my uterus. For a long time, I avoided facing this operation. I believed there wasn’t a good-enough reason (The click), until […]